I've been thinking a lot lately about my life and the path that has led me up to where I am today. I've been thinking a lot about life decisions along the way, and specifically the people that I have surrounded myself at different points. In my pondering I have been thinking a lot about a specific acquaintance that I used to be very close to who I am no longer in communication with. I keep puzzling and puzzling over the events that led up to our estrangement, and the more I think about it the more frustrated I become. The whole thing was so silly, and yet we took ourselves so seriously! Continuing to think about this over a period of time, I decided that I wanted to contact and apologize, gain closure, and possibly resuscitate an old dead friendship. This person won't answer or return calls, reply to email, and I can't help but feel like a terrible person.
Have you ever lost a friend or someone you cared about to something you said, did, didn't do, and regret it? Do you have any advice to give? I'd sure love to hear it!
Thanks and love,
Ashley
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3 years ago
I know several people that I thought were friends who now avoid me like the plague and I'm not really sure what happened to prompt the silence- they just stopped talking with me.
ReplyDeleteI recently concluded that I was the one trying to keep the friendship going-calling, trying to talk with them, etc, with no response on their part. I also realized that if my friendship isn't important to them then it shouldn't be important to me. I know that might sound cruel and mean and it makes me sad, but I think wasting emotional resources and energy on something that is only one sided isn't good for anyone. I know that doesn't really answer your question, but those are my thoughts.
No, it does answer my question. I've tried taking that stance for the most part, I just get itches every once and awhile to try again. :)
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